Plan B?

Went to Plan B with Lex and friends Saturday night. Being in a relationship (a great one!), I have forgotten how to approach dudes. It was insecurity/high school/single life all over again. There we were circle dancing and I was looking around, waiting for a man to pull me over to him.

Then I saw my dream man. Olive complexion, tight novelty tee, 6 feet tall, slim, no man breasts, short hair. He took my hand and I embraced him. Then his lips grazed my neck. I thought... are we gonna make out? do I wanna make out with my dream man?

I smile asking him "what does your shirt say?" Dream man doesn't respond. He is pulling away. So I move closer...

Then he pulls away... I'm thinking "is he just trying to give me a hug? is he drunk? is he grossed out by me? don't go away!!!"

He leaves me, gets lost in the crowd. I feel dissed and insecure. its like I never had a boyfriend. There I was dejected and rejected like I had felt so many times before.